My Husband

I will never forget that November day when a doctor at the hospital told us that the heart of our baby wasn't beating anymore. The world around me crushed into pieces, I couldn't stop screaming and crying till I had no strength anymore and just stared into the emptiness.
But there was Jordan. He held me. He was crying. I felt so sorry and I told him I was sorry. I felt it was my fault that our baby had died. He told me that that wasn't true. He was there when I was in labor and when our son was born and together we made it. When they had given me a lot of painkillers and stuff to calm me down I felt that breathing became hard. I asked him to watch me breathing and he did and made sure I was okay. I could never have made all this alone.
Together we looked at our small little boy, we talked to him and cried together. I had to go into surgery really quick after the birth, so Jordan stayed with Fabian and spent some time with him what comforted me a lot.
After the surgery he stayed the night with me in the hospital and another day and another night. He ate the hospital food with me and he couldn't change his clothes or shave.  I had nightmares and didn't want the lights to be turned off. He was always there. He is always there for me. I guess there are some husbands who don't want to talk about the loss of their baby and some who get annoyed after a while when their wife keeps talking about their experiences. Jordan never does anything like this. I can always be sad, I can always talk about Fabian whenever I feel like it. We talk about him a lot. We are so happy that we have Emily who is such a wonderful little girl. We are excited to have more kids.
I am so sorry that he lost his little boy.